и снова самураи. старое интервью

[~Ryuik~]

Vicious (December 2000)

(тот самый номер с самурайской фотосессией)
Увы, не полностью (если не ошибаюсь) и только на английском.

Interviewer: So, you’re dressed as a samurai in the photos- and I hear that you are interested in the ways of samurai.

Gackt: It’s not as if I just got interested few days ago. I was really interested in this from a long time ago. Some one asked me- “What’s the base of my life?” and I said “I want to be a samurai until I die.” Then the conversation became something like “What is a samurai?” For me samurais are…… You see, modern Japan only cares about the “process” right?

Interviewer: Process?

Gackt: For example, let us be in a baseball team. The coach will say “You don’t have to care about winning or losing. Your effort is the problem.” It’s the same in after-school activities too. You have a goal, you only care about practicing and the only thing you concentrate on is effort. I don’t agree with that. Effort has nothing to do with the end. You first think up of your end, then you think of the position, and then comes the process, it’s obvious you go through a process when you want something. When you’re in front of a process, it sounds like you’re seriously thinking about something but actually it’s like “I’m going to school just incase” or “Just in case, I’ll get a job because I’m not going to be troubled financially.” That may sound like you’re going close to your goal but you’re actually getting really far away from it. Most people can’t see their result and even if they can see it, they can’t reach it. But, if you’re view point’s at the result, you can see a vision of it and go through the perfect process.

Interviewer: I see.

Gackt: Why this talk and samurais can be connected is that samurais weren’t killing each other everyday, right? They can train because they can see their result. And when the actual “match” comes…… You used to write “match” “death” and “game” (Chinese characters) long time ago. It means they faced death. It means, if you lose, you die. “Oh, I don’t care, we have a next match.” Those people a used to giving up and losing . But I think that there’s no “next times”. The only “now” is “now” and once it’s gone, you can’t get it back. A spirit that’s used to losing is like a view point going to a place you don’t want it to go to. Of course, in different countries, it’s all related to religion. When you’re lost, a religious morality can help you. Japan has lots of religions but basically Japan’s a Irreligious country right? So you can’t get morality out of religion.

Interviewer: Yes. That’s just right.

Gackt: In schools too, they teach you how to study but don’t teach you how to live. They even don’t tell you what you’re studying for. “It’s a good school” is what they only care about. They don’t want any unique people. They want to make normal “average” people.
Everyone feels weird about that. But no one tells you the answer. They even don’t have the feeling to go and look for the answer. I want to be a samurai because so I can find out the answer by myself.

Interviewer: So Gackt-san, do you want to be a samurai until you die?

Gackt: Yeah. If I ever die, I would like to die while I’m fighting. If I don’t fight with myself, I’m not myself. Because, isn’t it the same with any other thing? I’m sure there’s people who think “You don’t have to try that hard”. They think that they can earn something easily. That’s true but, trying hard and earning something is really unbelievably great. Doing something halfway and leaving it is really bad. I’ve experienced it few times. However, I don’t think it was a failure. If I gave up at that point, I might of failed. But I didn’t- I kept on going on.

Interviewer: Did you always have the “full-power”, “once-in-a-lifetime chance”, feeling from when you were little?

Gackt: Not really. I really hated losing but my thinking was really negative. I kept on thinking about death. In a meaning, I was trapped by it.

Translated by Mio
(с) 2003 Muse, Gackt.us

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